Чарлз Буковски
I've never been lonely. I've been in a room -- I've felt suicidal. I've
been depressed. I've felt awful -- awful beyond all -- but I never felt
that one other person could enter that room and cure what was bothering
me...or that any number of people could enter that room. In other
words, loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because
I've always had this terrible itch for solitude. It's being at a party,
or at a stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel
loneliness. I'll quote Ibsen, "The strongest men are the most alone."
I've never thought, "Well, some beautiful blonde will come in here and
give me a fuck-job, rub my balls, and I'll feel good." No, that won't
help. You know the typical crowd, "Wow, it's Friday night, what are you
going to do? Just sit there?" Well, yeah. Because there's nothing out
there. It's stupidity. Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let
them stupidify themselves. I've never been bothered with the need to
rush out into the night. I hid in bars, because I didn't want to hide in
factories. That's all. Sorry for all the millions, but I've never been
lonely. I like myself. I'm the best form of entertainment I have. Let's
drink more wine!
